If you have all of these fears the old me would have said for you to find a doctor to talk to (I have a few numbers you can call) because we all know that I don't have the gift of compassion.(Prozac could be your answer) Butttttt, the new me is not so quick to send you down the trail. I have to admit to you and myself I have had problems with fear. I am such a control freak that if it isn't perfect I feel that I have failed. Rather then fail I give up and don't try. For many years I wanted to be a Christian speaker but was afraid. I wasn't afraid of speaking in front of a group. I wasn't afraid of not having anything to say. I was afraid that something bad was going to happen to me or my family. You see every Christian woman that I had heard speak had some kind of tragedy in her life. They had been abused. They had overcome a terrible sickness. They had lost a child. I had prayed that the Lord would take my gift because I wasn't willing to go through that so that I could speak. This struggle became so strong for me. I remember coming out of a ladies bible study one night and was so into my own thoughts that one of the ladies asked what was wrong. After years of holding it all in I finally let her know my fear. This wonderful friend sat me down, opened the word and gave me an ear full. She quoted 1John 4:18,"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love." Fear is not from the Father but from the one who doesn't have perfect love. Fear is from the one who wants to keep you distracted from doing what God has called you to do. She made me realize that Father would not punish me or my family for a gift He had given me. She also reminded me that if trials did come my way He would be beside me with that perfect love.
My friend if there are things in your path today that are causing you fear let the Fathers perfect love help you overcome them.
2 Timothy 1:7