Thursday, September 6, 2012

I have a fear

      Have you ever been afraid that someone is going to notice your little flaws? (you can't spell) Have you ever been afraid that  you made the wrong decision? Have you ever been afraid that something is going to happen to your children? Have you ever been afraid that you married the wrong man? (not you honey) Have you ever been afraid that you made the wrong career choice? (delivering telephone books) Have you ever been afraid that life is passing you by and you haven't made a difference?
     If you have all of these fears the old me would have said for you to find a doctor to talk to (I have a few numbers you can call)  because we all know that I don't have the gift of compassion.(Prozac could be your answer) Butttttt, the new me is not so quick to send you down the trail. I have to admit to you and myself I have had problems with fear. I am such a control freak that if it isn't perfect I feel that I have failed. Rather then fail I give up and don't try.  For many years I wanted to be a Christian speaker but was afraid. I wasn't afraid of speaking in front of a group. I wasn't afraid of not having anything to say. I was afraid that something bad was going to happen to me or my family.  You see every Christian woman that I had heard speak had some kind of tragedy in her life. They had been abused.  They had overcome a terrible sickness.  They had lost a child. I had prayed that the Lord would take my gift because I wasn't willing to go through that so that I could speak. This struggle became so strong for me.  I remember coming out of a ladies bible study one night and was so into my own thoughts that one of the ladies asked what was wrong.  After years of holding it all in I finally let her know my fear. This wonderful friend sat me down, opened the word and gave me an ear full. She quoted 1John 4:18,"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love."  Fear is not from the Father but from the one who doesn't have perfect love. Fear is from the one who wants to keep you distracted from doing what God has called you to do. She made me realize that Father would not punish me or my family for a gift He had given me. She also reminded me that if trials did come my way He would be beside me with that perfect love.
    My friend if there are things in your path today that are causing you fear let the Fathers perfect love help you overcome them.


 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7



2 comments:

  1. Me too! Those horrible things and the strength to overcome -- that's what I always think when I hear those women who speak-- and I don't want to be gifted in that way either! Not that I'm a public speaker. And not that I have a lot to say (aloud anyway). Fear shackles us! Thanks for sharing and for showing that a terrific and inspiring speaker can have a pretty terrific and undramatic life! Love you!

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  2. It was Patty Smith who sat me down. She changed my world that day. I hope I am able to help someone like that one of these days.

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