Monday, October 28, 2013

Pass the Kleenex please

     Have you  ever had one of those times in your life when you couldn't turn the water works off?  Well,that  is how it has been around here these past few week.  Clean house and cry like a baby.  Read Facebook and use up a box of Kleenex. See Beth Moore live in Tulsa and cry as if under convection. Listen to Tim's jokes on Sunday and sob uncontrollably. (Ok, that happens all the time.  The guy has got to get some new material) I didn't know what was wrong with me.  Was it stress, exhaustion, hormones or just me being me that caused the tears to roll? I went into a hole of poor pitiful me. I started believing every negative thought  that flew across my mind. (((((God can't use me because I am to old. The church is going in a more contemporary direction and my traditional self will offend someone.  My gift of gab has put me on the blackball list so God has taken my platform. I have messed up God's plan in some way and that is why I am unable to do something big for Him. I am of little importance and God is busy with the good people.))))))
       Whoa!!!!!! Hold the boat there. None of this was God's doing.  This was all on me. I believe we could call it pride, arrogance, self-petty and lies. I have learned that when you put all those things away and start looking at what wonderful things God has put into your life the leaky pipes begin to stop their dripping. For example: I may be older (my birthday today) but look at all the life experiences God has given me. The realization has hit me that I have a Great God and He loves me gab and all. I know now that I had let the lies steal my joy. As I climbed into the Father's lap and let my sad song sing he gave me a promise.

However, as it is written: "What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard and what no human mind has conceived" these things God has prepared for those who love him." 1Cor 2:9

     God has planned a life for me that is far more then I could ever perceive. As long as I love Him and I stop focusing on me then I will see his mighty hand work for His glory not mine.  Give up the Kleenex people and put your focus where it needs to be. "LOVE HIM"

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